It's true, Xanax has made me so much less of a b@tch

I know I joke about the Xanax use and in all honesty I don't use it that often. I have a prescription for 30 pills that has lasted me almost a year. I got it after Evie was born and it literally saved me from going crazy and never leaving the house again. Now I just use it when the anxiety creeps up again which isn't that often. Today was a day where I had to dip into my precious supply. Yesterday we accepted an offer on the house and today the family who made the offer came over and signed their papers. This looks like a done deal and I'm completely freaking out. The last ten months I've been focusing on trying to sell our house, thinking it would never happen, and now that it's likely sold I'm realizing what that means. I know I bitch about Santaquin a lot on here but I do love many things about it. It reminds me of the small town I grew up in and I like that in many ways. I have great friends here. I have a good job and I know most of the teachers at the school. I now like our ward. I could go on but what I'm saying is that the good outweighs the bad most days. Mainly the bad is the people who annoy me and being far away from the city. I'm remedying both by moving but I know there will always be people that annoy me. I'm me! I'm trying to adopt Hanna's attitude of excitement. She is "excited to meet knew friends!" That this child came out of me is some sort of crazy cosmic mix-up. Grace, my kindred spirit, doesn't want to move and Ryan is starting to feel sad also. We put a lot of time and effort into this house to make it a home and it's painful to leave. I've never moved from a place I liked before except when I was seven and I got over that pretty quickly. Well, anyway it's going to happen and it's a good thing for our family. That's what I've got to keep telling myself. I wanted to add that the only things that made me feel good today were Hogi Yogi frozen yogurt and watching Grace fall asleep on Ryan as he read us some Little House on the Prairie. Because frozen yogurt is the shiz and kids are cutest when they're asleep.